Lies I Tell Myself:
1. I will go to bed early tonight, and finish the cleaning/laundry/dishes in the morning when I wake up early because I went to bed so early.
2. Even though it is later than I meant to go to sleep, I will still get up early to finish the cleaning/laundry/dishes.
3. I will finish the cleaning/laundry/dishes when I get home from work.
4. I will finish the cleaning/laundry/dishes on Friday when I don't have to go to work.
5. I will hire someone to do the cleaning/laundry/dishes.
6. I will make dinner using one of the amazing recipes from The Fancy Cookbook.
7. I will make something other than tacos or burgers with the ground beef in the freezer.
8. I have time to volunteer more at Zoe's school.
9. The van is supposed to make that weird rumble noise.
10. I'll mow the lawn before it rains.
11. Ten more minutes of sleep will make all the difference.
12. My hair looks cute this way.
13. I'm going to chase down that lady that lets her dog poop in our yard.
14. I will remember that I put my car keys/work badge/glasses right here where they don't go.
15. I will only go on Facebook for a few minutes.
16. I've totally got it all together.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
Goodbye Summer Sun
The summer has officially flown by us with startling speed. We saw many of our close friends get married this summer, with front row seats. We moved. We neglected our new lawn and garden, but it rained so seldom that it's all nice and dead now anyways. We had an anniversary. Isla started crawling and got some teeth. Zoe is enrolled in a new school. We did a little camping and got through two more birthdays (Zoe and Nathan). Phew.
Then this morning I had to put on a jacket to head out the door and I realized that it was September first and summer was on it's last gasp of sunny days and warmth and I was suddenly fighting back tears.
This summer has been awesome, and mostly because I have had the opportunity to stay home with the kids through most of it. I have loved being here for all of the fun lazy dog days of summer. I loved reading board books in the lawn (not mowed) and making grilled cheese for lunch. I loved feeding Isla her first strawberries and then blueberries and then blackberries, all fresh from our yard (or neighbors). I loved chasing Simon and Zoe down the slip and slide. I loved watching Isla steal Simon's pacifiers back the day she learned to crawl. I loved Being Home and all it entailed, even the diapers and cleaning and yard work (oops).
Fall is coming, my unemployment runs out in October and there is so much to be done at work that there is no way I can ignore it any longer. I didn't even know I would like being home as much as I have and now it is time to go back to the Old Amanda Routine. Just knowing this makes me feel frantically crazy and desperate to find some way to make one income work. It makes me feel kind of sick, having to begin the hunt for new childcare (we have had someone wonderful available during the little bit I worked this summer, but she's going back to work soon too)and the thought of someone else's hands holding and feeding and caring for my kids. Who will respond to Simon when he hollars, "MommyMommyMomMomMom" after skinning his knees?
Ugh.
So, I cried a little in the car today on my way to work, and began a new prayer that the kids won't forget these days that we have had together this summer. I am so grateful that we have had these days, this awesome rain free summer.
Then this morning I had to put on a jacket to head out the door and I realized that it was September first and summer was on it's last gasp of sunny days and warmth and I was suddenly fighting back tears.
This summer has been awesome, and mostly because I have had the opportunity to stay home with the kids through most of it. I have loved being here for all of the fun lazy dog days of summer. I loved reading board books in the lawn (not mowed) and making grilled cheese for lunch. I loved feeding Isla her first strawberries and then blueberries and then blackberries, all fresh from our yard (or neighbors). I loved chasing Simon and Zoe down the slip and slide. I loved watching Isla steal Simon's pacifiers back the day she learned to crawl. I loved Being Home and all it entailed, even the diapers and cleaning and yard work (oops).
Fall is coming, my unemployment runs out in October and there is so much to be done at work that there is no way I can ignore it any longer. I didn't even know I would like being home as much as I have and now it is time to go back to the Old Amanda Routine. Just knowing this makes me feel frantically crazy and desperate to find some way to make one income work. It makes me feel kind of sick, having to begin the hunt for new childcare (we have had someone wonderful available during the little bit I worked this summer, but she's going back to work soon too)and the thought of someone else's hands holding and feeding and caring for my kids. Who will respond to Simon when he hollars, "MommyMommyMomMomMom" after skinning his knees?
Ugh.
So, I cried a little in the car today on my way to work, and began a new prayer that the kids won't forget these days that we have had together this summer. I am so grateful that we have had these days, this awesome rain free summer.
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